Progress

Moving forward into new territory is scary. And I’ve been paralyzed by fear for far too long. Years too long. I’ve been afraid of what you will think of me. What they will think of me. What they will say. Thanks to many, many self-help books, people who I follow on Instagram, Podcasts, and friends […]

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Blogging Future

Updates on here have been nonexistent. My mind randomly goes to, “I should write a blog…” at least once a day and clearly that never happens. So much has happened since last September. I started seeing a therapist in September and that should come with it’s own warning label. I’m not a fan of talking […]

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She’s Enough

In my last post, I was going back and forth in whether or not I wanted to try for a second (sixth?) child. I’m sure in my mind I went back and forth a million times. I wanted a second (sixth!) baby, but my fear was greater than my want. In the end, I decided […]

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Blogging, babies and selfish behavior. 

“Blog” has been on my to-do list for literally the past seven+ months. It’s not that I don’t have the time, I do. It’s not that I don’t want, I do. I just don’t, and I don’t know what the “why” is. It’s crazy to believe we have a soon to be 15 month-old. It’s […]

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So, you had a baby.

Pregnancy Trigger: Baby update after four losses.   I’ve thought about what this post would look like – The post after I finally had a baby. How flowery and perfect it would be… Rainbows and butterflies… A perfect world would commence. I’ve been waiting so long for this moment; it’s here. Only, it didn’t really […]

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28 weeks

Tomorrow marks my 28th week. I wish I could say this has been an easy pregnancy. I wish I could say that I’m excited. I wish this were a “normal” pregnancy. I’ve still not fully accepted that this is happening. I’ve gained a total of 13 lbs, which is great for my size, and feel […]

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Fourteen

Obviously it’s been a long time since blogging. After looking back at my last post, I realize I never gave the update to what happened after my surgery. The surgery was successful… The ultrasound showed that my uterine septum went from 12mm to 5.5mm, which was the goal–to get the septum under 6mm. We waited […]

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