10 Years

Ten years ago today I would have given birth. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about that baby. I have thought all day about what I could say and how I could depict my feelings. But there aren’t words to describe how I feel. There are fleeting thoughts of all the birthday […]

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Letter to Baby

Letter to Baby was written about nine years ago. It was a difficult thing to do; something that was recommended by one of my therapists (there were three over the course of the last ten years). I literally wrote this letter to my first miscarried baby. I don’t know if it really “helped” me or […]

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Friend or Foe

Over the years, I have become an awful friend. I used to be the kind of friend that knew all the birthdays, sent the card and gave the best gifts. I don’t like to brag, but I did give some pretty stellar gifts. In retrospect, it was all an attempt to purchase the friendship, keep […]

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Years of Tears

A very old poem/song that I wrote years ago. It’s unfinished and unpolished, but still applicable. Years of tears People don’t know our secret Your story never told Years pass and you never get older Your faceless features never age with time Hole in Heart/Raw edges Watch the minutes move, For you time doesn’t tick Story […]

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