A very old poem/song that I wrote years ago and I’m posting today for Throw back Thursday. It’s unfinished and unpolished but still hits the spot.
Years of tears
People don’t know our secret
Your story never told
Years pass and you never get older
Your faceless features never age with time
Hole in Heart/Raw edges
Watch the minutes move,
For you time doesn’t tick
Story to never be told
Your faceless features never get old.
Fresh wound that will never fade.
The person that I always wanted to be
Requires you and me.
Being strong for no one other than me.
I can love you from far away
You’re only a thought away from me.
Count to ten, twice, making sure I was right.
Stepping stones into and invisible ground
Looking where you can not be found.
Talking to Him. More conversations at night
Knowing I wasn’t ready to give up the fight.
Hoping and praying that I wasn’t right.
He wanted you more than I.
Gave up the fight, cursing at the light
Jagged edges, raw and torn.
Heart forever damaged
More to me than my entire life give for you
I gladly would
To hold your hand so you can stand where you stood
Sing lullaby and kiss you goodnight.
Knowing you’re happier with Him.
Precious moments of only minutes long.
Never realizing you would ever be gone.
No one ever to take your place, this I guarantee
You were my heart and soul, a piece you can’t replace.
This is so much harder than it seems
You never escape my dreams
In this world it was just going to be
Just you and me
Smile one more time.
Crying ain’t a crime
Moments lost, not a medicine around to cure my cough.
More than just a memory, you’re me.
But I can’t stop from crying
As cliché as it seems
You’re me.. one, two, three.
That night saying goodbye.
There was never more pain than then.
But I will take the blame. Never knowing your name.
If it rained when I cried,
The world would never be dry
The best things in life are free,
But you only cost me, me.
Let the world fall down around me, I’d give it all.
Watch me fall
Serenade of silence surrounds me.