Progress

Moving forward into new territory is scary. And I’ve been paralyzed by fear for far too long. Years too long. I’ve been afraid of what you will think of me. What they will think of me. What they will say. Thanks to many, many self-help books, people who I follow on Instagram, Podcasts, and friends […]

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She’s Enough

In my last post, I was going back and forth in whether or not I wanted to try for a second (sixth?) child. I’m sure in my mind I went back and forth a million times. I wanted a second (sixth!) baby, but my fear was greater than my want. In the end, I decided […]

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28 weeks

Tomorrow marks my 28th week. I wish I could say this has been an easy pregnancy. I wish I could say that I’m excited. I wish this were a “normal” pregnancy. I’ve still not fully accepted that this is happening. I’ve gained a total of 13 lbs, which is great for my size, and feel […]

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Fourteen

Obviously it’s been a long time since blogging. After looking back at my last post, I realize I never gave the update to what happened after my surgery. The surgery was successful… The ultrasound showed that my uterine septum went from 12mm to 5.5mm, which was the goal–to get the septum under 6mm. We waited […]

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Positively Negative!

I keep finding it incredibly difficult to write anything here. The days are fluid and run seamlessly into each other. To boot, I’m feeling fantastically dramatic. Updates? Ok. This Thursday will be my post op ultrasound appointment to see how well the septum resection went. We’re hoping for a uterine septum under 6 mm. Here’s […]

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Post Op!

I had my second hysteroscopic septosplasty yesterday. Apparently, that’s the technical term for it; I had been just calling it a septum resection. Everything went according to plan and there were no hiccups in the day. Unlike the first surgery, this one was on time and I didn’t have a difficult time waking up from […]

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Standing Still

Seriously, have you ever met a motherless woman who wasn’t completely insane? Think of a woman who doesn’t have a child. She’s not normal and you know it. I think this process makes us crazy. __________________________________________________ Today is a particularly difficult day. I don’t know why. There’s no good reason. I’ve taken an anxiety pill. […]

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