Rainbow Colored Glasses

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything. The last miscarriage kinda took it out of me. Since the last miscarriage I see rainbows everywhere. On walls and in the sky. I see one and know that it’s there just for me. The one that prompted the title of this post, “Rainbow Colored Glasses,” came […]

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How to have the longest miscarriage in the history of miscarriages.

Here’s a rundown of how you accomplish this feat, should you so choose. April 8th: Heartbeat April 17th: No heartbeat, “You will miscarry…” April 26th: Very mild spotting, dark brown. April 27th: Start hemorrhaging, go to ER, pass tons of clots and “products of conception”–ultrasound shows only a few blood clots, “you’re fine to pass […]

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Baby withdrawls

Things that have happened since losing the baby: -No more sore boobs -No more sore stomach from Heparin -No more progesterone=dry sore vagina -No more shiny curly hair -No more long, strong nails -The urge to drink, smoke and eat sushi until I’m sick. (Self medicate) -The overwhelming urge to cry at any given moment. […]

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Unleasing the Uterus

There’s no way of predicting how a miscarriage will turn out. Once you have decided that you’re going for the “natural” approach as opposed to having a D&C, you assume it’s going to be, well, natural. No medical intervention, just you and a whole lot of blood. Well, that’s how it’s supposed to go… On […]

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Bye, bye Birdie.

Yesterday we had our second “viability” ultrasound. There was no heartbeat. The baby had not grown from 6 weeks, 4 days, in fact, it got smaller to 6 weeks and 1 or 2 days. I stopped all meds… No more heparin, no more progesterone. We’re assuming the septum is the cause of the demise, but […]

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Pregnant Woman Jealous of Pregnant Women

So much has happened in this past week… I’ll try to recap briefly… – Last Tuesday (4-8-14), a week ago, we had our first ultrasound. We saw a heartbeat! A sweet, little blip and a heartbeat! The baby was on the upper right side of my uterus and there was no way of knowing if […]

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Still

A short recap/update: Here are the levels again (two new ones added):   March 24th: HcG was 430, Progesterone 16.61 March 26th: HcG was 1,066, Progesterone 16.16 (it went down?! After googling this, apparently this does fluctuate) March 31st: HcG was 3,795, Progesterone 20 April 2nd: HcG was 6880, Progesterone 18 (down again) April 4th: […]

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