Break Down Here

I’ve been putting off writing this post just because I know it will be mentally draining for me. Two weeks ago was a hard one for me, emotionally. I had what I would presume to be a “breakthrough,” and if that’s what it was, I’m not sure I like it. Everything sort of came to a head after […]

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Thank you, Doctor

If you’ve never been overweight and gone to the doctor’s office, you’re truly missing out on a fun experience. Every problem is a direct result of your weight, regardless of what it is. Lower back spasms, carpal tunnel, ear ache, hang nail. Lose weight and you’re cured. I decided I’d had enough with my current […]

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Progress

Moving forward into new territory is scary. And I’ve been paralyzed by fear for far too long. Years too long. I’ve been afraid of what you will think of me. What they will think of me. What they will say. Thanks to many, many self-help books, people who I follow on Instagram, Podcasts, and friends […]

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Stressed Out

I have a spoon and a jar of Nutella. Don’t mess with me. What do you do when you’re stressed? Try to find ways to de-stress? Is there really such a thing? I’ve been wanting (for a long time now) to try and learn to meditate. I’m stressed out by the fact that I don’t […]

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Happy Birthday, Baby

Today, February 13th, I should be giving birth to my third baby. Instead, I sit hear remembering the short while that I was pregnant with this little kiddo. I was only six and a half weeks. Hardly pregnant. Barely pregnant. I hate those terms. You’re either pregnant or you’re not. This day hasn’t been as […]

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It just ain’t fittin’.

One reason I haven’t written a lot here is that I’ve been struggling with how to bring this blog full circle. How do I incorporate weight loss and miscarriage? How do they relate? How can I make sense of all this? This past weekend my husband and I went to Ohio to see his family. […]

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Friend or Foe

Over the years, I have become an awful friend. I used to be the kind of friend that knew all the birthdays, sent the card and gave the best gifts. I don’t like to brag, but I did give some pretty stellar gifts. In retrospect, it was all an attempt to purchase the friendship, keep […]

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