Fourteen

Obviously it’s been a long time since blogging. After looking back at my last post, I realize I never gave the update to what happened after my surgery. The surgery was successful… The ultrasound showed that my uterine septum went from 12mm to 5.5mm, which was the goal–to get the septum under 6mm. We waited […]

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Positively Negative!

I keep finding it incredibly difficult to write anything here. The days are fluid and run seamlessly into each other. To boot, I’m feeling fantastically dramatic. Updates? Ok. This Thursday will be my post op ultrasound appointment to see how well the septum resection went. We’re hoping for a uterine septum under 6 mm. Here’s […]

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Post Op!

I had my second hysteroscopic septosplasty yesterday. Apparently, that’s the technical term for it; I had been just calling it a septum resection. Everything went according to plan and there were no hiccups in the day. Unlike the first surgery, this one was on time and I didn’t have a difficult time waking up from […]

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Standing Still

Seriously, have you ever met a motherless woman who wasn’t completely insane? Think of a woman who doesn’t have a child. She’s not normal and you know it. I think this process makes us crazy. __________________________________________________ Today is a particularly difficult day. I don’t know why. There’s no good reason. I’ve taken an anxiety pill. […]

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Rainbow Colored Glasses

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything. The last miscarriage kinda took it out of me. Since the last miscarriage I see rainbows everywhere. On walls and in the sky. I see one and know that it’s there just for me. The one that prompted the title of this post, “Rainbow Colored Glasses,” came […]

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How to have the longest miscarriage in the history of miscarriages.

Here’s a rundown of how you accomplish this feat, should you so choose. April 8th: Heartbeat April 17th: No heartbeat, “You will miscarry…” April 26th: Very mild spotting, dark brown. April 27th: Start hemorrhaging, go to ER, pass tons of clots and “products of conception”–ultrasound shows only a few blood clots, “you’re fine to pass […]

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Baby withdrawls

Things that have happened since losing the baby: -No more sore boobs -No more sore stomach from Heparin -No more progesterone=dry sore vagina -No more shiny curly hair -No more long, strong nails -The urge to drink, smoke and eat sushi until I’m sick. (Self medicate) -The overwhelming urge to cry at any given moment. […]

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